It is truly a question I will never understand. Why do people enjoy the way they feel about themselves when they use their energy in something so useless and bitter as hate? Most of all, even if we do feel hatred towards a certain someone, why can't we hold on that hatred inside of us, but instead we often do the opposite by talking shit or just overall doing our absolute best to bring the other one down.
A human being does not grow, not mentally nor in the eyes of the others, when they talk shit about others. Quite on the contrary, if you have even the slightest bit of sympathy all you will feel is disappointment towards yourself after making up lies about others, just for one cause, to make them look worse. More or less importantly, when you keep talking shit about others to a person, this person will soon come to the realisation that this is all you do and your trust in their eyes will quickly be gone.
I have a strong belief in the fact that every lie will eventually come out one way or another. And personally, I do believe that talking shit comes to face the reality as well. You simply cannot hide behind your lies forever, for a while yes, but not enough to last.
I found out that somebody that I used to know a couple years ago kept talking shit about me behind my back to people that I don't even know, neither do I think they knew me, or cared for that matter. I'm not saddened by the fact that this somebody kept talking shit, it's quite usual for anyone and everyone to be talked shit about, but the way this certain person took something quite personal for me, my love for my dogs, and turned it into the opposite. Accusing me of being violent and aggressive towards them. And as anyone that has ever known me or wanted to hangout with me knows that I put my dogs needs before mine, sometimes a bit too much. But in all honesty, I have never loved anything as unconditionally as I love my dogs, they are the only ones that actually accept me for the person I am. Which is rare for someone like me.
The way people take the truth and twist it completely around, making the person they're talking about seem like the worst people ever born is what disgusts me in more ways I can say. It is normal, no matter how sad it is, for people to talk shit about you behind your back, that I know.
There has been countless amounts of people that keep saying how I am weird, too extra, too loud et cetera, but those things I know to be true, and I also know that many can't handle them (aka my personality), which I have learned not to care about.
But what hurts me the most is finding out how people twist your whole personality around, not really caring about the consequences or the feelings that are hurt in the process.
I am not saying that somebody telling lies about the person I am is turning my world around, no. But it does hurt, finding out how many people actually think that I do, or ever could do something that is so deeply out of the reality.
But all in all, I have come to the realisation that if people really trust the preconception enough to not take interest in someone else, not wanting to get to know the individual personally, it is also enough for me to know that they were never worth getting to know.
